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I'm either very philosophical or very lazy tonight, take your pick. In either case, I've spent most of my evening thinking about humanity, which is kind of a perilous proposition. Starting from the point at which I have to recognize that no other human being can ever fully understand my mental processes, just like I can't understand theirs, I've begun to wonder why, exactly, we define "normal" so narrowly. It could be an artifact of statistics, but I just don't understand why more people aren't faced every day with the idea that they aren't perfectly "normal" every day.(Very few people can be "normal" in all things: actually, the statistical probability of being average - say, within the very middle 10% of everything, intellect, athletic ability, creativity, etc., is probably a lot lower than being in the upper or lower 2% in any given category.)
That said, I'm still going to the school councilor, and still on the fence about whether or not it's going to work. Yup, guys, I'm talking about it in an unlocked post. Those who were just browsing have probably run off by now when they figured this post was going to be about feelings. According to the school councilor, I have social anxiety - not something you guys would have noticed, not being around me in real life. Supposedly that's interacting in a pretty complex way with my personality to start tanking my GPA since I have two math-related classes outside of my main major distribution, where I don't know people. Which, I get why the councilor thinks this - I really don't want to interact with a lot of my new class aquaintances, I do worry a lot that they'll think badly of me because they haven't known me as long as they've known each other, and I definitely stress over disappointing my professors. (That's one drawback to a small faculty-to-student ratio - start asking questions in class and the professors start relying on you for answers during lecture. And then wondering why you keep bombing the weekly quizzes.) At the same time, though, the thought struck me:
( Honestly, information you probably didn't require. Who woke up this morning and thought "Hey, it would be cool if I could pop into Scribbles' brain for a bit?" Well, now you know why it's not a tourist attraction. )
That said, I'm still going to the school councilor, and still on the fence about whether or not it's going to work. Yup, guys, I'm talking about it in an unlocked post. Those who were just browsing have probably run off by now when they figured this post was going to be about feelings. According to the school councilor, I have social anxiety - not something you guys would have noticed, not being around me in real life. Supposedly that's interacting in a pretty complex way with my personality to start tanking my GPA since I have two math-related classes outside of my main major distribution, where I don't know people. Which, I get why the councilor thinks this - I really don't want to interact with a lot of my new class aquaintances, I do worry a lot that they'll think badly of me because they haven't known me as long as they've known each other, and I definitely stress over disappointing my professors. (That's one drawback to a small faculty-to-student ratio - start asking questions in class and the professors start relying on you for answers during lecture. And then wondering why you keep bombing the weekly quizzes.) At the same time, though, the thought struck me:
( Honestly, information you probably didn't require. Who woke up this morning and thought "Hey, it would be cool if I could pop into Scribbles' brain for a bit?" Well, now you know why it's not a tourist attraction. )
